I was 10 weeks pregnant when our doctor asked whether we wanted to know the gender. We had said no in the ultrasound room, but faced with the question again, I looked at Gavin, and he just said it was up to me. Remembering a Buddhist saying that “when you don’t know what to do, do nothing,” I decided to say, “I don’t know if I want to know.” It wasn’t like I couldn’t find out at any other time in the next six and a half months, so what was the rush?
There is certainly no real good way to describe that feeling when you find out that you are pregnant with your first child. Whether you had been trying or it was a surprise, there is something pretty magical about looking at your positive pregnancy test.